Shut the door, turn the light off.

I'm really frustrated.

I was at Nico's house, and it was Danny, Nico, Tessa, Aleia, Kate, Mark D, and me.

I'm finally like "Oh yeah, I definitely like Mark."

Right then, Kate walks up to me, "Ashley, I like Mark."

I'm like "MY LIVE IS OVER. MOTHER TRUCKER." 

I didn't say that to her though. 

She just asked me again why that was bad because when she told me I was like "UUUUGGGGHHH" and she was like "What?" and I was like "COZ I REALLY LIKE HIM." Minus the caps. The caps were how I felt. 

She goes "This isn't good" because we always like the same guys and I was like "It never is" because she always gets the guy.

Damn you, Kate.

I wanna be with you, I wanna feel your love.

So this time I decide "truth&rates" and guess who liked it.

JOSEPH..

I'm going to sleep. -_-

She takes your hand... I die a little.

So I've eliminated Joe out of the four guys, so its down to three now. 

Damn, why does it have to be so hard to pick a guy... that would actually like me back. 

That's the hard part.

No one likes me. 


Of course. 

So yeah, I guess its down to Mark L, Mark D, and Michael. 


This really is gonna be a good Friday tomorrow.

Helena is going to New York from Friday night to Saturday, and we're going to have a drama free weekend.

WHOOP! -_-


People:
Tessa
Kate
Aleia
Ashley (Me) 
Danny
Nico
Mark D


(I think there's another girl but I can't think who it'd be.)


Plans:
Tessa's mom is driving us to Teppanyaki, then someone is driving us to Nico's house. We don't know who yet.


Then we're going to either Sherwood or St. Anthony's park. 


Then back to Nico's house.


I CAN'T WAIT. Its gonna be a fun day.

 

I'm broken, do you hear me?

So today I went to see the play my High School Drama Club is doing (Beauty and the Beast) and guess who was there.

Michael. 

And Joe.

Worst part; I'm stuck between four guys, it sucks.

Michael, Mark D, Mark L, and I can't believe I'm saying this, but Joe.

I don't think so for Joe, but yeah.

He threw a skittle at my face. -_-

So my first words to him in forever?

"I HATE YOU, JOE" with a mother freaking smile on my ugly ass face. 

I was 100% joking, obviously. 

Wanna know what made me happy?

He was laughing.

He was smiling.

He was enjoying that moment.

I was laughing.


I was smiling. 

I was enjoying that moment.


That's what I miss between us.

Not being too shy to talk to each other, or I guess throw skittles at each other. 

I felt a freaking skittle hit my face and I was like "DAFUQ?!" and then I remembered he threw one towards me before and I looked down the row at him and he was laughing and smiling at me and.. you don't know happy that made me.

We haven't talked in forever, and I know my first words were "I hate you, Joe" but I know he knows I was joking. We were both smiling and laughing with each other, and I really miss when that was every day.

I miss him. 

I was really happy tonight because of him, and I really wanna tell him that, but I'm not going to.

We're 'friends' according to him.

I don't see a friendship.

You need to talk and hang out to be friends, correct?

Well, I'd enjoy some more friendship moments here, please?


.. Please. 

I would walk through the desert, I would walk down the isle. I would swim all the oceans just to see you smile.

So today Joe passed out in school. XD

He meant to, though.

There is this thing that all the guys were doing (because they're not that smart) and none of the guys passed out in my class and like 7 of them did it.?

Nico did for legit a second and he came back.

Tessa said Joe did for like a few seconds and then Mackenzie (who tries to show off and lies and has a big mouth, no offense but its true) told me it was like a minute. 

The teacher would notice, you stupid.

I haven't talked to him in legit FOREVER.

I wanna text him, really bad.

But if I ask someone they will tell me to then when he doesn't text back (which he won't) I'll be humiliated and I won't be able to look at him.

But if he does... well, he wont... but IF he does, then I'll probably be like "OHMIGOD OHMIGOD OHMIGOD HE ANSWERED. WHAT DO I SAY?! WHAT KIND OF CONVERSATION DO WE HAVE?! LIKE OLD TIMES?! OR LIKE "Hey, how are you?" OR LIKE "Whats up?" AND STUFF?! WHAT IF IT GETS AWKWARD?!

I MAKE EVERYTHING AWKWARD."


See, this is why I don't text him. 

 INBETWEENERS DANCE GO!

FUCK YEA. Those are my boys.

<3

We're making all the same mistakes.

Wanna know what I've been wondering?

Why I think the people I used to like will ever come back to me and be like "I like you, a lot."

*coughcough* MichaelorJoe *coughcough*


HAHAHA MY GAWSH YOU KIDDING ME?! WHO THE HELL IS DRUGGING ME AND WITH WHAT?!

They're called One Direction and they're drugging me with beauty.

DATS THE SHIT.

This is what they do to me.

I don't know what's going on.

I'm wearing these glasses that aren't real glasses and then Tessa is saying they look stupid and telling me that my whole class told her they were prescription when I told them all that they were fake when they asked.

LIKE WHAT DAFUQ. LIKE NO. 


^^>


I'm sorta kinda obsessed with One Direction.

I'm doing my power point on them.

The slide about Niall is going to have him freaking DEFYING GRAVITY.

MY GOD ITS GONNA BE A BEAUT'.

What I love the most about One Direction is they taught me I'm beautiful in my own ways. 

Oh yeah, that's the reason I'm wearing the glasses.

The glasses fit my personality, and I'm not letting anyone ruin that... *Helena*

LOLWUT?

I have homework, and I have to type my paper still..

UGGGHHHH.

PEACEE BEBZ.  

I wanna stay up all night, jump around until we see the sun.

I'm actually kinda sad.

No, more like really sad. 

 

Can we fall one more time? Stop the tape and rewind, oh.

Harold Edward Styles is a freaking sex god. 

Just thought I'd let you know.

 

I think he tries to trigger memories sometimes. 

Do you know how amazing my summer would be if I got close to him again? If he actually DOES hang out with us like we regularly do, my summer will be complete.


Mhkay, so I guess I'll tell you who I'm in love with...

Well... there's five of them....

Liam James Payne, Louis William Tomlinson, Harry Edward Styles, Niall James Horan, & Zayn Jawaad Malik.

No specific order. 

They light up my world like nobody else. ;D

They're mine. 

ESPECIALLY HARRY. DON'T MESS WITH MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. OR ANY OF THE OTHERS. <3

You never really can fix a heart.

I saw our school's play of Beauty and the Beast!



It was really good!

Yep, fun time.

It just keeps getting better. 

Ohmigod its great. :D

I'll lift you up, I'll never stop, you know I'll take you to another world.

That moment of not knowing what to think when you check your phone after not looking at it for a while and having a text from that one guy you've been waiting for...

So I get out of dance, go to check my phone, expecting the usual: no text, no missed call, nothing.

One text.

I unlocked my phone to see who it was, and sure enough, "Joe" was on the screen. 


Not anything special, at all.

Just "Who is this???????" 

So I just said "Its ashley."

He didn't text back yet.

Not entirely sure if he's being legit. 

My Facebook status was "that awkward moment when three people who had your number ask "who is this"... -_-"

So I'm not sure if he's just joking with that, or being serious.

Because I'm gonna tell you something.

Twice in the summer/school year, he did the same thing.

It was after we weren't friends.

He said "Who is this?" and I just said ".. really?" and he was like "Ya who is this?" and I was like "Its Ashley. Isn't this Joe?" and he said "No"

Me: Then who is this?
Him: His friend

Me: but its Joe's number. what's your name?
Him: I wont say and he left his phone at my house

Me: oh.

Him: Ya do u still like him

Me: not anymore.

Him: Y not

Me: he'll never like me so I guess I'm just gonna give up on liking him.

Him: O how do u no tht

Me: i don't know for a fact but its just my instinct..

Him: O well i gtg bc im going over Joe's so he's gonna have his phone

Me: mhkay, bye.

I remember all of that by memory.

By the way, that WAS Joe. Not his friend. 

 

The second time he did it, he pretended he was a friend again and asked if I thought me and Joe would ever be friends again and why I gave up on him.

I told him "its really up to Joe to decide that. i gave up on him because i realized he would never like me, and he just chose not to be friends i guess"

Wanna know what I miss?

Sitting in the backseat of my parent's cars because I was texting him everyday and I didn't need them to ask who I was texting.

Staying up until like one in the morning to text him.

Playing the "If you had to would you..." game.

Conversations.

Him.

When I said I didn't want to be friends with him anymore and I didn't care, I lied.

I do want to be friends with Joe.

I do care.

I do miss him.

But I miss HIM. 

The old Joe.

I want to tell him he's changed. I want to tell him I do miss him, but I don't have feelings for him. I do want to give him that five page note, but the only way is through Tessa and she won't do it unless she reads it and I don't want her to read it. I want to give it to him, but I don't know when/how.

):

</3

Lets gather around the campfire and sing our campfire song.*

C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E  S-O-N-G  SONG!

We had a campfire last night! 

 Left to right: Mackenzie, me, Tessa, Rachel (towards the back), Helena, Alexis, Maddy (Mackenzie's little sister), Tom, Zack, and Mark is in the front. 

It was really fun. Then I was trying to ask Alexis how I should become friends with Joe again because I want to just be friends. Helena came over and wouldn't leave when I stared at her, so Alexis told me to just text her later. 

Alexis had to go talk to Mackenzie because something happened that she wouldn't talk to anyone and she sat near the shed and wouldn't move. 

Helena was like "What do you have to talk to her about?" and I was like "I wanna be friends with Joe again..." but I was quiet and hesitant and she was like "EWH he's a bird!" and I walked away and what made me really mad was she went over and told every single one of them (the guys left before all this) and said "Ashley just said she wanted to be friends with Joe" and someone said "Joe who?" and she said his last name and you could hear it in her voice she had that "ewh" face on. It really pissed me off. I was having the greatest night, and she ruined it.

I really liked how I looked last night, weird enough. 

I really don't know anymore. I don't want to be friends with him now though.

Tessa texted me before and she was like "Joe is coming to the play with us" (our high school puts on a play in the spring and winter) and I was like "When are we going" 

But like seriously I'm not gonna talk to him at all and I'm not gonna sit by him therefore I'm done with him. 

Simple enough.  


See the glasses I'm wearing? 

I wore them to the fifth grade talent show. 

I was in sixth grade then (when I liked/talked to Joe still).

June 2, 2011. 

The day after the sixth grade went to Hershey's park. 

The day after I asked Joe out.

It was a Thursday, hah. 
 
I was with Amber. When we were walking out, Joe was sitting with whoever he was with on the railing outside of the school and me and Amber were going to the playground. 

I wasn't gonna say anything to him, but she told me I should so I smiled at him, waved, and said "hey"


He did the same. :D


But the next day he ended up saying "no". Oh well.




During the talent show, he texted me and said "lol nice glasses" and I was like "haha thanks" and it was just regular for us to talk to each other like that. It got even more regular in July. 


I just remembered that today. I'm wearing them again, but not for that. 


I love these glasses. 




Not as much as I loved him, though.

I should've kissed you, I should've told you just how I feel.

Joe's status on Facebook:

"Who wants to chill after school"

*Raises hand*

I wanted to like it, but I didn't. 

I put that truth that I said I would on his wall... he didn't like or comment. 


\m/


Dance Team TRYOUTS tomorrow after school!

I'm so nervous. I've been practicing the dance like there's no freaking tomorrow.

I was practicing it with other people from the group after school and the guys (Michael, Robert, etc.) were waiting to go outside for track and so they were kinda watching us and I was like "ohaay what do you want.."

Michael kept talking about it. He was like... 

"you like to practice a lot..." 
"is this for where you dance?"
"what is it for"
"when are tryouts" 

I kept answering and then when he left I was like "heh-heh"

I don't like him like I used to but I still do a little.  

You don't know you're beautiful!

WHY THE HELL DOES HE HAVE TO LIKE EVERY FREAKING TRUTH I DO ON FACEBOOK?!?!?!

Every time I do a "truths" status JOE FREAKING *his last name here* HAS TO LIKE IT. LIKE NO. YOU DON'T TALK TO ME, I MISS YOU LIKE FREAKING HELL. DON'T DO THIS TO ME. Please.. 

I put: "truth is we don't talk anymore... well actually this isn't really a real truth because this has been my truth the last two times so it really isnt the truth.. i would say we should talk again but i don't think you'd give me a change again, so that's out of the question. soyeah. see ya?"

He didn't put anything back yet... 

You had a lot of crooks try to steal your heart, couldn't never figure out how to love.

Him: " Wanna know what songs remind me of Summer 2011?"
Me: "Yep!"
Him: *Pulls out phone and plays Stereo Hearts by Gym Class Heroes, How to Love by Lil Wayne, and another song that I forget*
Me: *Smiles when he puts How to Love on*
Me: "I thought so. Strange enough, Jordan made How to Love... our song..." 
Him: "I know." *smiles*

Who do you think it was? 

Nico on the ski lift, haha. 

That is the second time he's done that. 

I miss them. (Jordan, Nick, etc.) 

I love how I finally open up to someone I thought was a good friend and she continues to treat me like shit. Woop.

You lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around... You make me crazier.

Me and Nico have got really close. 

We were skiing last night and he was trying to teach me how to properly turn and he kept falling it was the best.

This is amusingly accurate.


I honestly did NOT think I was gonna get that right.

I love how he was like "I'm now hiding under my bed because of your comment" 

That is comical. 

Ohmygawd. 

Dying. 

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 


I love Nico so much! Like best friend love... because he's my best friend! <3 :3

You've got that one thing.

I had a good dream last night (:

I've had a dream like it before, but it was just the place that was the same. 

First it was at a theater. It was my dress rehearsal for our dance recital, and for some reason, our whole grade was there. 

After the rehearsal, we went outside. It was like a fair, but not so much. It was only our grade. There was a big open field, then a playground. In the playground, there was a maze. In the maze, you had to climb through tubes at some points, but not all the time. 

Once I got out, Tessa and Nico were at the end waiting.

I laid on the ground for some reason, and then Nico came over and laid next to me. I don't know where Tessa went. (Strange part) Nico asked me out.
 
I said yes, and I do not know why. Honestly. It was a dream, so I had no control. I have no clue what I'd say if he asked me out in real life...

But anyway, then we were holding hands and stuff and we went to Helena's house and then I woke up.


 
Speaking of Helena, I'm kinda upset with her.

I'm having trouble with stuff, and apparently so is Alexis and Tessa. But she invited them to a sleepover to "help them." 

I told her something last night when it happened and she said "I don't know what to say" and eventually walked away. 

Then for the most of the night she was talking to Christian and Tessa in the bathroom. I was crying.

Everyone who was comforting me left Danny's house, so I had no one. 

I told her something else that happened today, and she compared it to something with her.

That's why I don't like opening up to her, because she always compares it to something with her.

No offense. 

What can I say when all you do is push me away?

Dropped my phone in the toilet last night \m/

Used my Mom's old phone, the enV3.

My old phone broke. It was the Kin Two.
 
YOU DO NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH I LOVED THAT PHONE. 

It carries so many memories. 

Text messages, pictures, videos.

I really miss it. It broke though. I dropped my backpack when it was it the front and the inside of the screen broke. 

Text messages from Joe and Nico.

Pictures of Summer 2011. 

Videos of Vanessa when we were still friends and the fun times we had. 

I'll tell you about some of my favorite pictures: 

~An accidental music note shape made out of tar that I found at the Plaza one day with Tess. 
~The star Tessa, Gianna and I made out of our fingers. 

The sad part is that is all I could think of. I miss that phone like you wouldn't understand.

I really wish it still worked.

I had a dream that it still worked and I woke up and tried to turn it on but it didn't work.

Nico said he had a dream that it worked. 

He also loved that phone. 

The texts when me and Joe were friends... The memories. 

I really really really really really really miss that phone. </3

 
But hey, I still have my phone that fell in the toilet (Cosmos Touch (I had to get a crappy one when the Kin Two broke) and it works! 

Starships were meant to fly, hands up and touch the sky.

Sorry I haven't been posting. /:

Aleia's dad and grandma are on Restaurant Impossible!

Anna Maria's is the restaurant. 

No ski club today. ):

 

Love is in the air- but not for me.

Got my laptop back!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY GUYS! <3

So, I'm still forever alone. :P

In my school you can write either Anonymous or your name and then the person's name and then a little note and the person gets a lollipop with it.

Yep.. I got none.

Helena got one from Mark.

Nico got FOUR. 

I got none. 

Forever Alone \m/

Blech, I'm tired.

Night lovieess! Happy Valentine's Day! (: 

The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries to be sad.

Sorry I haven't been posting.

I got my laptop taken away.

So until then, I won't be posting really.

I haven't been having a good past few days.

Never apologize for saying what you feel. That's like saying sorry for being real..

The top four are what the post/comments were. The bottom picture is the people tagged. 

Yes=Still friends
No= Not friends anymore.

Mark D: Yes.
Colin: No.
Danny: Yes.
Eric: Yes.
Mark M: No. 
-Me-
Jordan: No.
Tessa: Yes.
Cassidy: Yes.
Christian: Yes.

Then Helena (yes) who posted it on Stephanie's (yes) wall. 


</3

I just wrote this. ^

Some boys think of girls just like books: if the cover doesn't catch their eyes, they wont even bother to read what's inside.

I actually never thought me and Nico would become as good friends as we are.

He is literally my best friend out of the guys. 

He has been so nice lately. 

Its nice to see him like this. 


Because honestly even if he's joking, he can say some mean things.


But me and him are best friends.

I'm happy about it too. 


What, I can't be happy to have a guy who is my best friend?


Oh well. 


(:


I CAN'T FIND MY IPOD AND I'M SO PISSED. 


Tessa was playing with it last and she doesn't know where she put it.


I know its somewhere in my room, but I can't find it. ITS SO FRUSTRATING AND ANNOYING. UGH.

Someday I will catch myself smiling because my life is better without you.

All the memories from the past came flooding back. I miss the past.

Bad. 

</3

There is only one happiness in life—to love and be loved.

So still debating. 

But I'm pretty sure I'm done liking him. 

I SAID STILL DEBATING THOUGH. 


I really just don't know anymore. 




I got two new pairs of shoes..! :D

I got a sky-ish blue pair of Converse, and a purple pair of Vans! <3

OHMIGOSH I LOVE THEM. 



So on January 14th, I told you guys that Tessa was talking to Michael and she had his number and she said she didn't have it anymore, remember that?

So I was looking in her contacts just randomly and who do I come across? "Michael D"

I was a little mad. 

I didn't take his number.

What would be the point?

One: I would never get the guts to text him.
Two: He doesn't like me, according to Tessa and Helena. (They asked him) So again, what's the point?

 

With friends like these, who needs enemies?

I had fun last night.

People there:

Tessa
Kate
Helena
Julia
Aleia
Me
Nico
Nicky
Danny
Mark D
Eric
Christian

 
It was seriously so much fun.

I love movie night/sleepovers. 

They rarely happen anymore though.

Its plain to see that we were meant to be.

So, I'll update you completely on plans for tomorrow.

School. Walking to the church to get our throats blessed. Plaza. Kate's house. Movie (Paranormal Activity 3). Sleepover. 

(:

I'll kiss you between your ears.

Thanks to some people, I think I'm gonna give up (like I said weeks ago) on liking Michael.

Like I also said, same reason as I gave up on Joe; He'll never like me.

People just keep telling me he doesn't like me so I was like whatever, I give up. 

I'll find my final answer after tomorrow night if he hangs out with us. 

I love the song The Bird and The Worm by Owl City.

I don't care how much people are teasing me (I guess you could say) about loving Owl City.

Its my kind of music.

I think the music is cute, and I love his voice.

I don't know how people don't like his voice... or his music.

I just love it.

When I went to the concert on November 12th (2011 obviously), I was freaking amazed. 


The concert was on a Saturday, and the Thursday before my mom says to me "Excited for Saturday?" and I was like "... Saturdayy...?" and she was like "Owl City concert?" and I said to her "OHMIGOSH WHAT?!" and  then I started freaking out.


I wanna go to one of his concerts again.


Bad.

Evem after all these years we just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

I was gonna ask Michael if he was definitely coming or not at the end of the day, but he had to finish taking his Science test because he took all class and still didn't finish it so I didn't see him at our lockers.

I'm gonna ask him tomorrow morning. (:

Oh, so look what Tessa posted on my wall just before. 

Kayla and Helena liked it.

Haha its because I sent her this in text form but not those exact words and she made this picture. 

So thanks. :P

I hate studying. Like so much.

I can't wait until Friday.

Life is a work of art.

I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR MY SUBJECT CHANGING. ):



So we asked Michael today.

He asked who was going, I gave him a list. 

He said "No Nico?" (He's coming now, though)

A: "Him and Helena are *air quotes* "taking a break from being friends" for now"
M: "Oh. Why?"
A: "I'll tell you at our lockers"




Heh-heh I never got to tell him...


But there is a great possibility he is going Friday. 






I'm cold. :P


Dudess I really hope Michael comes Friday.


I will seriously cry if he can come, or have a dance party.




Effing. 


Legit.


:D


I actually studied tonight, for reals.


Only because if I don't study and my parents notice and I get not good grades I get punished. -_-


Hehe oh.


That awks moment when Patrick and Allison are going out and I'm forever alone... still....


Patrick and Allison obviously liked each other... and he finally *bad part right here* to ask her out. 


But still..

Honestly... both of them are not pretty/cute. AT. ALL. 




So I was like "SERIOUSLY. DUCK YOU LIFE"


So I just hit my elbow. Off the table that my laptop is on in my room. Accomplishment. 


WHOA THAT WORD IS LONG!

A-C-C-O-M-P-L-I-S-H-M-E-N-T. 


:OO


Hahaha I get distracted SO easily.. 


So tomorrow is February.


Where I live, today it was 54 degrees. 


We still have no snow..


I live somewhere where we are supposed to get feet of snow right now.


HAHAHA OF COURSE WE DON'T.


I love the song Domino by Jessie J. It always makes me happy...



I change the subject. A LOT. 



So me and this kid who used to like me a lot (eighth grader, I'm in seventh) are now talking about Joe.


And Michael.


He knows that I used to love Joe.

He knows that I like Michael a lot.


Two of my friends are secretly dating.


I don't think its secret anymore, though. 


Awks.


I love my class. (:


They are just the best. Ohmigosh. I love them.


If I ever got bumped down/up (HAHHAH I WOULD NEVER GET BUMPED UP) I would die. I would be like HAHAHA NO WAY. 


Helena, Kate, Nico, Michael, Julia, Cori, and Tyler are in my class. Plus so many other people I talk to. Its great. 


Have you ever had a Vanilla Bean Frappuccino from Starbucks?


If Yes- I love you.


If No- YOU HAVE NEVER DIED AND WENT TO HEAVEN. 


Me and Michael were talking in Reading class a bit.


I don't know how the teacher didn't flip out on us, or at least notice. 




HAHAHA SHE'S BLINDD. 


No seriously she has like no eyesight whatsoever.




I think I'm going to sleep now. 

Hahaa more like "I'm going to lay in my bed and play on my iPod until like midnight and then when I'm done there I'm going to lay in bed and imagine stuff that will never happen between me and Michael!"


Seriously that's practically what I do every night. 


:3 <3

If you love someone, you love them all the same.

Holy crap guys. 

I might be hanging out with Michael Friday.

Movie night. 

I know I'm gonna go, because my parents always let me go with my friends. 

I hope he can go..

Oh and guess what.

So the first time Tyler and Tessa started dating, I liked Tyler just a little.



Tyler and Tessa like each other.



He doesn't want a girlfriend yet though.

BUT OMFG IF MICHAEL HANGS OUT WITH US FRIDAY.........

Movie night (Scary movie) + Friday night + Friends + Michael + Other boys + Sleepover with the girls afterwards = Perfect night. 


... I hope its perfect.


I don't think you understand how happy I will be if I can just spend one night hanging out with him. 


YOU. DO. NOT. UNDERSTAND.


IF HE COMES. I WILL EXPLODE. ONCE I FIND OUT THAT HE IS COMING. THERE WILL BE A DANCE PARTY. IMMEDIATELY. AND WHEN I FIND OUT (IF) HE ISN'T COMING. THERE WILL BE TEARS. 


Loljk no tears but sadness. 


:OO

I really like Michael. 


A LOT. <3

Please don't ever grow up.

Helena posted the thing up top (the song) on my wall and tagged 11 people in it. 

This is what everyone commented. 

I honestly do not want to grow up. I want to stay a kid. Never leave my friends. Never die. 

I just got out of the shower like ten minutes ago. I was bawling my eyes out.

Because I don't want to loose any of my friends. Or grow up.

Because I miss my dog who died November 27, 2007. 

Maggie.

I miss her so much. I love her, you don't understand at all.

</3